You Wouldn't Dare (Khaos Trilogy Book 1), стр. 98
His wounds were far worse than he would ever let on, and that’s when I knew we were in real danger.
Just like Khaos, my ears detected the sounds of people following us, their shouts growing in volume as they swiftly closed the distance between us.
I glanced at Khaos and saw the beads of perspiration running down his face, and when my arm went to wrap around his waist, I felt the wetness on his shirt and knew from the scent that the stab wound was bleeding profusely.
The sounds of barking rumbled through the air like thunder as dozens of paws pounded the earth, easily following the scent that we hadn’t been able to disguise.
“Violet,” Khaos mumbled, stumbling slightly as his leg gave way. “We’ll never lose them like this.”
I knew what he was saying.
Without shifting we would never be able to outrun the wolves, yet I couldn’t shift without immediately causing a miscarriage.
“Can you... do you think you can shift? I can ride on your back. You’ll be able to get us both out of here!” I knew I was asking for the impossible. One look at him was all I needed for an answer.
More tears pooled in my eyes as he smiled sadly at me. “I can’t shift, Violet. Not until we remove this silver, you know that.” Copying my actions from earlier. He cupped my cheeks in his hands, rubbing his thumb over my lips.
“Go,” he murmured, his lips briefly brushing against mine. “Protect the baby.”
My head snapped back, but he held his firm grip on my jaw, locking his eyes to mine. “I’m not leaving you!”
“We can’t both make it, listen to them! The whole pack must be following us!”
“I won’t let you do this! I won’t let you sacrifice yourself for us!”
He pressed his lips to my forehead, rubbing his nose over mine, and planted tiny kisses along my cheeks. “You are the best thing that ever happened to me. You gave me a love that no-one else has ever done, you made me happier than I ever hoped or prayed I could be. Please do this for me, raise our baby away from all of this.”
“Khaos!” I cried, clawing at his shoulders to keep him close to me as he tried to pull away. I grabbed his face and forced him to look me in the eyes. “Hey, look at me, look at me. There is always another way. We will get through this.” He shook his head, and I bit down on my cheek as I swallowed against the burn in my throat, trying my hardest to keep the tears at bay.
“Don’t do this, please Khaos, don’t leave me like this! I can’t live without you.”
“You can’t live with me, sweetheart. You know they will never stop chasing us. I need to do this for you, for the baby.” He sank to his knees in front of me, lifting my top up so he could rest his cheek against the slight curve of stomach.
“You,” he smiled sadly, tears openly flowing down his face, “make sure you look after your mummy. She’s very special. Always know that I loved you from the moment we created you.”
He kissed the bump and looked up at me. “You’ll tell them, won’t you? Promise me you won’t let them forget me.”
“They won’t forget you because you’re not doing this! If you do this, they’ve won! It’s all for nothing!”
“If you and the baby are living safe and happy then it’s not for nothing is it!”
I bit my lip, unable to stop the tears that streamed down my cheeks. I couldn’t give him up, not now, not after everything.
I loved him too much.
"Don’t you see, Violet? I will always mess this up. I've tried to be the man you want, the man you deserve, and I can't do it. I will always go back to angry Khaos, the Khaos that destroys everything in his path. Your parents are right to want better for you." He hugged my bump that little bit tighter, pressing his lips to my skin as the tears freely flowed down his face.
"Khaos… You're already what I want, what I need! I don't want you to change. The baby and I need you - I can't do this on my own Khaos… please."
"I love you more than life itself. Just go, be safe. Raise our child away from all this fucking madness. Keep them safe and I'll keep you safe. You know this is the only way."
"Khaos--"
"No! It started with me, and it’ll end with me. I swore that our baby would no better than this, that they would never experience a smidge of the life I have had. But I know now, I would be the reason for his bad life. I can’t be a different man. I have too many enemies out there, ready to cause you harm. I will end this now, I’ll make this right!” He got to his feet and shoved the suitcase back at me.
“Go!” He pushed me roughly, his eyes frantically scanning the distance as the paws thundered closer and closer.
“No!” I screamed back, tugging on his hand to pull him with me.
He grabbed me once more, pressing his lips against mine so roughly that I tasted blood on my tongue as they scraped against my teeth, “I love you, little one.”
Before I could stop him, he spun on his feet and ran towards my mother and her army of assassins.
“Khaos!” I screamed, pleading with him. “No! Please! Come back to us!”
He ignored me, running until he was a mere fleck in the distance.
It left me with