You Wouldn't Dare (Khaos Trilogy Book 1), стр. 62
I fell asleep, smiling to myself, finally feeling at peace.
I stretched as I woke up, wincing at the pain between my legs. The haze from The Heat had hit three more times in the night and each time Khaos had woken with me, taking me repeatedly. Every time he showed me a different position, a new way that he could tease my body until I couldn’t take it anymore. The second time we had taken it slower, exploring each other’s body in a lazier way until the need overtook us and he bent me over the bed, pulling my hair back with every thrust as he spanked my arse.
“Morning,” Khaos mumbled sleepily, planting a kiss on my temples. He jumped out of bed with a groan and I couldn’t take my eyes off his muscled back and perfect rear as he made his way to the en-suite. I listened as he took a shower, my stomach twisting with nerves.
Last night was perfect. More than perfect. It went beyond anything I could have ever imagined, and Khaos had been nothing short of amazing with me. He was patient and giving, never pushing me into anything, allowing me to be the one to initiate every time. He had still been the teacher though, dominating me in all the right ways.
Regardless, I still had to do this.
I jumped up to wrap myself in a dressing gown, sitting on the edge of the bed as I waited for him to return.
Minutes later, I smiled shyly as Khaos came back out of the bathroom, a towel slung low around his hips. I patted the empty space next to me.
“Is everything okay?” He asked, frowning when I refused to meet his eyes.
“Not really,” I replied sadly, hating myself for what I was about to do. He sighed heavily, wrapping his arm around my shoulders.
“This is about Logan, isn’t it?” I nodded, a tear spilling down my cheek. “I’m sorry. I know you were telling the truth. I was so blinded by my arrogance yesterday; I didn’t stop to think. I saw the two of you kissing and the pain almost brought me to my knees. I was hurting and wanted you to hurt. I know that sounds awful but--” I placed my fingers to his lips to silence him.
He kissed the tip of my finger and I had to bite my lip to stop the sob escaping me as I took in the utter heartbreak in his eyes.
“Khaos--”
“No, Violet, listen to me. I was pig-headed and moronic. Nothing I ever say will take back what I did, the way I humiliated you. I know you think the rest of the wolves were against you, I could tell by the look on your face. I assure you they weren’t. Jasmine read me the riot act the minute you left. I think a couple of the warriors feared her actually.” I smiled at him, imagining Jasmine in a temper. She would be a force to be reckoned with as she faced up to her Alpha.
“I’m sorry, Violet. I know I say that a lot, but I truly am.”
“I know. I’m sorry too. We’re making a mess of this, aren’t we? I’m not sure it’s this difficult for anyone else.”
“Other couples probably don’t admit it. Or they’re stuck in a boring relationship, neither one of them having anything to say to the other. We work, Violet. We’re dynamic, alive. We bring out the worst in each other, but there’s no one better suited for us.” I stayed silent, not knowing what to say to him.
“It’ll get better,” he promised, kissing my fingers one by one.
“No. No, it won’t. I’m sorry, Khaos, but last night doesn’t change things. You murdered my best friend in front of me... I know why you did it,” I rushed out as he tried to defend himself, “but that doesn’t make it any better. How many more people are going to get hurt because of our toxic relationship? Who else is going to lose their life because of your jealousy? We’ll destroy each other and everyone around us. You know that.”
He didn’t bother to argue. Instead, he rested his forehead against mine, breathing unevenly. I didn’t know he was crying until I felt the wet splash on my leg.
“Khaos--”
“It’s fine,” he muttered, springing to his feet and wiping his face with the back of his hand. “I completely agree with you.”
He opened the door and without turning back he said his last parting words. “
This is your home. Please don’t feel that you have to leave because things didn’t work out between us. I know you weren’t happy at the Atlantis pack, I know your mother smothered you, so take your time. Decide what you want to do, what will make you happy and let me know. However, I’ll be away for the next week or so, and I’ll take most of my warriors with me. You’re free to explore without fear of running into them. If you could make your decision before I come back, we can go from there. Take care, Violet.”
He closed the door behind him softly, the gentle click sounding like a slap. I hid my face in my hands, finally giving into the sobs that had been building up.
I cried for Khaos and myself, for the love that could have been ours if only things had been different.
I let it all out, crying for poor, dead Logan. For my parents who were stuck in a bond they weren’t happy with, setting an awful example for the next generation. I cried for