You Wouldn't Dare (Khaos Trilogy Book 1), стр. 52
“No.”
“No? What do you mean, no?” He asked, turning back round to face me, seeing me still on my knees where he left me.
“Exactly what I said: no. It’s easy, just two little letters. Perhaps you’d understand German better? Nein. Maybe French? Non. N-O, Khaos. No.”
“What the fuck has gotten into you?”
“Me?! What’s gotten into you? I’m going to need you to explain because your mood swings are giving me whiplash. What could I possibly have done to make you act like this? I said all of maybe ten words during your story, none of which could have possibly caused you any offence.”
“Drop it, Violet.”
“No – Oh, look, there’s your favourite word again! Don’t you dare growl at me, you promised to stop shutting me out!”
“Violet...”
“Khaos...” I mimicked, “I’m not leaving until you explain. The clock’s ticking, as you said, it’s getting late.”
“You’re the most stubborn, hard-headed female I’ve ever--”
“And you’re the most selfish, nasty male! You’ve just rejected me - again! And you’re not even going to give me an explanation! Can’t you see I’m hurt? Doesn’t it bother you I’m in pain and confused? What is it about me that repulses you so much that you can’t stand to have me touch you?”
“Don’t be so ridiculous, Violet. I think you’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen. Of course I fucking want you. If you repulsed me, I’d let you give me pleasure, I wouldn’t go out of my way to ensure that you’re the only one who benefits most from our time in bed.”
“Okay, you might have a point there. So, what is it about being with me completely, sharing that intimacy with me that scares you? Have I not proven that I’m here for you, that I wouldn’t hurt you?”
“It’s not that! I have good reason, Violet. Just let it go.”
“I’m failing to see one!” I shuffled forward on my knees, closing the distance between us. “You want me, Khaos, you just said so yourself. Why won’t you let me give you this?” I reached out to grab his hard shaft, running my hand up and down the length to prove my point. His cock jerked in my hand and he stifled a groan.
“I know you want me, Alpha. You want to feel your cock down my throat as you forcefully face fuck me, I can--” He batted my hand away once more.
“Don’t touch me. Do you think it’s easy for me to see you on your knees? Knowing that the last time you were doing this, you were probably saying the exact same thing to Logan? That the day I met you, you rushed straight back into his arms? That I had to smell his disgusting cum on your breath!”
“That’s what this is about?!” I spluttered incredulously. “That meant nothing, Khaos! I was in denial! You can’t be serious right now! I don’t bring up the women you’ve been with, don’t think your reputation hasn’t proceeded you!”
“I know it’s ridiculous Violet, okay? I know! I just can’t stop seeing him, can’t erase the image from my mind!”
“Logan isn’t my mate, you are. You said I could leave anytime I wanted, but I’m still here, aren’t I? I’m here because I want to be with you. I’ve already proven to you that Logan and I never went as far as you and I have.”
“I know,” he sighed. “I don’t know what to tell you, Violet. It’s never bothered me before. Any other woman I’ve been with has had a past, I’ve never slept with a virgin and it never even occurred to me to ask or be angry about it. But with you… I want to march straight back to your old pack and tear Logan apart. I can’t stand the thought of another man touching you. I want to be the first and only man to have made you feel that way and it kills me knowing he got there first!”
“It’s different! Yeah, I sucked his cock.” I ignored the flash of pain in his eyes as Khaos winced at my harsh words. “But he never made me feel the way you do. He didn’t have me panting beneath him, he didn’t have my entire body tingling. He wasn’t my mate. You are. You get that first as well as so many others. We have an entire lifetime to create firsts together. Don’t concentrate on the ones you think you’ve missed out on.”
“I’m trying, Violet, I promise I’m trying,” he said, releasing a shaky breath.
“So, let me help, let me take your bad memory and replace it with a new one. What did you say earlier? That no-one ever does anything selflessly? You were wrong. There are no selfish intentions here. Allow me to do this for you, Khaos. I want this, I want you, only you.”
I hesitantly reached out for him again, stroking him softly.
“Let me make you feel as good as you make me feel,” I murmured, opening my mouth to run my tongue around the head of his cock. His hips thrust ever so slightly forward, and I took that as my cue, drawing him in deep, my tongue sliding down his entire length. He gasped as he hit the back of my throat and I forced down the urge to push him back and allowing myself to breathe. Instead, I sucked him in deeper, moaning when he sank his hands into my hair, his hips bucking as the vibrations rumbled around his shaft.
I raised my eyes to his, our gazes locking. I bobbed my head on him, maintaining the eye contact, letting him know my thoughts were of him and just him. I reached