Wolf: SBMC Maryland, стр. 32
“Right here,” he says softly, his fingers slowly moving again. I don’t look. I can’t. I’m transfixed by the way he’s looking at me. It’s different. Very different. I open my mouth, but the words won’t form. I know what I feel. I just can’t say it, not yet. Wolf shakes his head as if he knows, but how could he? Does he feel the same way?
“Just look, Krista,” he says. I follow his eyes to my leg. It takes me a second but then I see it. Right there in the vines that snake down my leg. I reach down and run my fingers over the letters. How did he do this? How have I not noticed it?
“Why?”
“Why not? You’re mine,” he says with the shrug of his shoulders.
“I wasn’t when you did this,” I say more to myself than to him. His hand comes to my cheek forcing me to look up at him.
“Yeah, you were. You just didn’t realize it. Hell, maybe I didn’t either but since I’ve met you, I’ve felt some kind of way about you. I don’t think we were ever gonna be just friends, Krista. There was a spark in your eyes that I wanted.” A tear slides down my cheek as I lean in and kiss him. His lips move with mine in such a perfect way. His hand moves to the back of my neck, pulling me closer. My breathing has picked up, my body becoming heated when he breaks our kiss. He jumps to his feet and holds his hand out for me. Reluctantly I grab it.
“Now keep your eyes on mine, not my hands. I know you can fight but you need to focus,” he says pushing me back a step. I smile and raise my hands ready to go. If I’m being honest, I’ve missed this. Back home, I would always fight. We would train because we didn’t have anything else to do. My heart aches at the thought of not having Ester anymore. My hands slowly begin to fall when Wolf eyes me.
“Don’t think,” he says softly. I nod my head and straighten my back. Wolf moves slowly, circling me like I’m his prey. I move with him, watching his eyes to see if I can gauge what he’s about to do. When he comes for me, I’m ready. He reaches to grab me, but I move quickly. Wrapping my hands around his arm, I slip my leg under his, taking him to the ground. He huffs out a breath as his body hits.
“That’s good. Do it again.” He climbs to his feet, ready for my attack this time. This goes on and on until neither of us can breathe and the sun starts to go down.
“I’m tired,” I tell him after a while.
“You didn’t even look over there.”
“What?” I ask confused by what he means.
“You didn’t look for her. It’s a start.” Grabbing his shirt, he pulls it over his head before grabbing his cut and pulling it on. I watch him as he lights up a cigarette when it all hits me.
“A start? Are you serious?”
“Very fuckin’ serious. He’s dead, Krista.”
“So what? That means I have to stop looking out for her?” I ask as the anger slowly rises inside of me. How can he say that to me? After everything that’s happened?
“Yeah, that’s exactly what it means. He can’t hurt her anymore. You did what you set out to do. You kept her safe from him. Now you need to move on with your life,” he says looking me in the eye. How could he say that? She’s my everything. I watch him blow out a ring of smoke before I lose my temper.
“She’s my daughter, Wolf!”
“She’s their daughter, Krista. We’ve been over this! What the fuck?” He roars.
“Just because he’s dead doesn’t mean there isn’t someone else out there!”
“Are you fuckin’ kiddin’ me right now? No one else is after her. You can’t handle a life without seein’ her, can you?” He narrows his eyes and I want to snap but maybe he’s right. Maybe I can’t handle it, but I did before. For years I didn’t see her. Years!
“Leave it alone, Wolf.” I walk away heading toward his bike when I hear his boots thudding behind me.
“What are you afraid of, Krista?”
“Nothing anymore.”
“Liar! You’re fuckin’ scared shitless of lettin’ me love you. You’re afraid of givin’ yourself to me and lettin’ me be what you need instead of stalkin’ that little girl!” His anger hits me hard but it’s his words that cause me to stumble. I stop walking and let them sink in when he walks past me grabbing his helmet. He holds mine out to me, but I can’t take it. I stand here stunned by what he’s said.
Twenty-Five
Wolf
“So that’s all I got for now,” Sly says after over an hour in church. Usually it doesn’t bother me but today it is. It’s been a week since I let that shit slip out of my mouth. A week that Krista has done the best she can to ignore me. I know she wants to run but she has nowhere to go. A part of me should feel bad but I don’t. I want her here. I don’t want her going anywhere. The guys all stand at the same time I do and head out into the main room. Krista sits at the bar with Holly, one of the club whores. It doesn’t bother me like she thinks it does. She told me she only hangs out with them to piss me off but what she didn’t understand is that at least I know what she’s doing when she’s with them. They wouldn’t let her get into anything.
“Wolf, can I talk to you a minute?” I look over when I hear Sugar talking