Mad Dog (Angel’s Rebellion MC: #2) (Angel's Rebellion MC), стр. 59
I jumped to my feet and fucking roared at her, “Don't you fucking dare walk out of this god damn room. You and I are going to have a talk, with me talking and you fucking listening. You got me? If not, I don't give a fuck, because your ass is gonna listen to me one way or another. I don't care if I have to come over there and physically sit on you, you WILL hear me out. Understand me?”
She sullenly glanced at me and snapped out, “Fine.”
“Shut the fucking door. This isn't anyone else's damn business but ours,” I snapped back at her. I pointed at the bed and said, “Sit the fuck down, now.”
She huffed out a breath and shut the door hard. Then she glared at me as she went to the bed and plopped down on a corner of it.
I ran my hands back and forth across my head as I paced around the room trying to get a hold of my temper. I didn't want to fuck this up, but with the way I was feeling I knew if I wasn't careful with my words, I could totally screw it up. I sighed deeply and stopped pacing. I fucking hated having to explain myself to anyone but felt like I needed to explain the situation she thought she had observed.
I turned to her and said, “Whatever you're thinking you just saw here, you didn't. Mel was down at the bar when one of the Prospects called Axel and told him he had been trying to get a hold of me. Mel was at the bar apparently getting a drink and overheard the conversation. Axel was busy so she volunteered to run up and tell me.” I glanced at my phone and realized I still hadn't plugged it in.
“Fuck!” I exclaimed as I walked over to the damn thing and plugged it in. “After she told me that, I looked at my phone to see it wasn't charged and then told her to go give Axel a message, what you saw was about three minutes of conversation with her only being one step into my room.”
I dragged in a deep breath, walked over to her, knelt at her feet, “Ava, if you really and truly want us to work out, you have got to learn you can trust me. If not, then, yeah, this will never work. I'm not gonna lie to you and say that I haven't been with four of those women downstairs. I have. But I haven't been with any of them in three months and that is the god damn truth.”
Her eyes were locked onto mine, listening to every word I said. I hoped like hell I was saying the right things.
“What I told you earlier was true. I won't be with another woman while we are in a relationship, and if this goes how I would like it to go, that means you would be the last woman I'll ever be with.”
I drew in a deep breath, “But, Ava, you will have to come to terms with the fact that I have been with those women and with the fact that you will probably see them every day.
“Also, you’ll have to realize that I will be talking to all of them. I'm not going to actively hunt them down to just shoot the shit, but there will be times I have to talk to each and every one of them. Ava, I can't kick them out. This is their home. I wouldn't do that to them. That would make me a fucking monster.”
She hadn't moved at all, she was listening to everything I was saying.
“I'm their President. I run this MC. I'm the one who makes the decisions for them, I hold the purse strings, Ava. If they want something extra, they have to come talk to me. So, yeah, you're gonna see them in my presence and I can't help that. But you won't hear of me being in their presence in any way other than to talk to them basically as their employer.”
I sighed, “Hell, Ava, if I truly wanted to be with those women, I didn't have to say anything to you last night after we fucked. I could have just left it there. I knew we were going to have new girls coming in, but after being with you, damn, even before then, I knew you were it for me. Yes, I fucking know it’s fast, but sometimes, baby, that's just life and when you find someone you want to be with more than anyone else on earth, then you have to fucking grab on and hold on tight. And I fucking want to be with you.”
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Ava
As I sat and listened to everything he was telling me, I realized he was right. He didn't have to say any of that to me last night. I sure hadn't said anything to him to indicate that I might be wanting more. It was fucking crazy, but from the moment I first glanced at him when I entered his office, something in me had said I was home. That had fucking terrified me. No one since Brian had even attracted my attention like Dog did.
And last night, oh my god, I had never come like that before. The feelings he had wrung out of me scared the hell out of me. Then to hear him say he was feeling what I was feeling, yeah, I felt like running for my life. Yet at the same time, I knew he was my life. I didn't understand how I knew that, especially after only a few hours of seeing and talking to him. But when I realize that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him, that had freaked me the fuck out.
I truly hadn't come