You Wouldn't Dare (Khaos Trilogy Book 1), стр. 38
“You wouldn’t fucking dare.”
“What was it you said to me? Oh yes, ‘try me’, wasn’t it?”
We both stared at each other, breathing heavily, each refusing to be the first to break eye contact. A knock at the door saved us from the worst in each other, calming the meltdown that was fast getting out of hand. When I was hurt, I lashed out, but Khaos had been hurt his entire life. He knew how to slice me down with minimal effort.
“Alpha. There’s a situation that needs your attention.”
“I’ll be right there,” he called back, shoving me away from him so I fell back on the bed.
“Think what you want of me and my pack, but apart from the warriors, every wolf here is a family man, looking for their mate or already happily settled down. No one would be interested in a slut throwing themselves around. They’re going to know there’s something seriously wrong with you if your own mate can’t be bothered to satisfy you during the heat. Especially when your mate has a reputation for his sexual appetite.”
He went to leave me and before I could stop myself, I called out: “Like father, like son!”
He turned to look at me and the utter disgust written on his face made my stomach flip. I had expected his anger at the cheap insult but seeing the disappointment and pain in his eyes almost had me running to apologise, to get on my knees and beg him to forget I had said it. It hadn’t even been an hour since he told me his story, and here I was throwing it in his face.
His lip curled in distaste as his eyes raked my body from head to toe, “I guess it’s true what they say. Beauty is only skin deep. You’re as nasty and ugly as they come on the inside. It’s suddenly not a mystery why the Goddess paired us together. Underneath your ravishing beauty lies a heart blacker than mine. I guess we’re a match made in Heaven after all.”
Chapter 10
Violet
Khaos didn’t return that night. An Omega brought me a meal when I refused to come down to dinner, and I spent the evening alone in this room.
Again.
I knew I was making yet another horrendous impression on the pack, but I couldn’t bring myself to face them without Khaos by my side - What sort of message would that send out if I turned up alone? It would just prove that he couldn’t be bothered with me. That I was here simply because the Moon Goddess had fated us to be together, that if it weren’t for the undeniable bond that called us together, Khaos would happily take what he wanted from me and leave me behind.
I knew what my mother would say, and for once I agreed with her; not meeting the pack after the length of time I had been here was inexcusable. I was already in danger of relying on Khaos too much, expecting him to hold my hand and guide me through my duties - I was meant to be the Luna of this pack! I should have been stronger than this, they needed me to be stronger than this, but I just wanted Khaos, and it hurt that he didn’t want me in return.
Despite the way he had been with me, despite the cruel and ugly words we had thrown at each other, he still called to me. My wolf was howling her anguish as we felt his rejection once more. I wanted to be with him, my body ached to be next to his.
Even though I felt silly and childish, I wanted the romantic mating of love stories, not this hellish existence I had been given. I had been swept off my feet alright, in all the wrong ways.
Sighing heavily, I threw the covers off my body and climbed out of bed, kicking aside the untouched meal that had been prepared for me. I was going to find Khaos and apologise; we needed to talk this through. It wasn’t just us we owed it to; we had an entire pack of wolves needing to have a strong Alpha and his Luna by his side, supporting him, loving him.
Once out in the hallway, I was lost. The packhouse was a mansion with twists and turns everywhere. I followed my instinct, heading towards where I thought the smashed-up room we had left this morning was. As I rounded another corner, I bumped into a beautiful woman who gasped when she saw me.
“Luna! What are you doing out of bed? Alpha Khaos said you were ill and not to be disturbed!” I gave her a small smile, secretly relieved that I did not have to explain my absence, that Khaos was protecting me and covering for me even through our argument. It was a small beacon of hope.
“I was looking for Khaos, do you know where I’ll find him?”
“He’s repairing the wall to your bedroom, but I thought you knew that. That was quite an argument the two of you had.”
I blushed furiously, staring at the floor, “you heard that?”
“Honey, the entire pack heard it.”
“Great,” I muttered sarcastically, scuffing my feet on the carpet, and avoiding her gaze.
She laughed at me and gently placed her hand on my arm.
“Don’t worry about it, Luna. We all know our Alpha has a temper. Between you and me, most of the she-wolves were cheering you on.” She gave me a small, conspiratorial wink,