You Wouldn't Dare (Khaos Trilogy Book 1), стр. 36
I looked up at him, seeing the disgust written on his face, the hatred and self-loathing, bracing himself for my rejection and scorn.
I grabbed hold of him and wrapped him up in the tightest hug I could manage, knowing it did little to ease any of his pain.
“I’m so sorry, Khaos. I had no idea.” I sobbed, squeezing him closer to me. “I believed everything about you, all those stupid rumours! I never even gave you the chance, I--”
“It’s okay, Violet, really. Everyone does it.”
If that was supposed to make me feel better, he had failed miserably. I was as bad as everyone else in his life. I had rejected him without even giving him a chance. I hadn’t even bothered to find out what had happened at this pack here today – I had automatically assumed the worst, thinking he would murder everyone in his path. I hadn’t known him long, but already we had been in some crazy situations, and besides the slight attack on Logan - who had provoked him now that I thought about it - he had never once hurt anyone.
I sobbed louder, thinking how much I was becoming like my mother. She judged people, condemning them without a second thought. I had always believed I was above that, but clearly, I was wrong.
Khaos’ hand stroked down my back, offering me murmurs of comfort.
He was comforting me!
Goddess, I really was pathetic! I pulled back and grabbed his face, covering it in kisses before hugging him tight again.
“There’s one more thing...” I looked at him quizzically, “this can’t end until I’ve finished what I set out to do. I hadn’t planned on ever finding my mate, I have nothing to offer you and I wanted no distractions as I finished my goal, yet here you are. So, we’re going to make the best of it. I don’t want to lose you now that I’ve found you and I can’t risk leaving you alone in my pack. I hope that after everything you’ve heard, you can understand…”
“Khaos, you’re mumbling. Just tell me. Whatever it is, it can’t be that bad, surely. Ryssa and Drake are gone and--”
“Violet. I’m going to kill my birth parents, and you’re going to help me.”
Chapter 9
Violet
Khaos refused to enter any further conversation with me as he drove us back home. I wanted to know more of his plan for his birth parents, how I could help him. I wanted to comfort him as I continued to process the story of his horrific upbringing, but he shut down every attempt I made.
I felt so much regret at the way I had treated him so far, believing every wild story I had heard about him. Yet, with nothing else to do but reflect upon our time together, I couldn’t help feeling that his own actions had already poisoned our relationship.
He had suffered more than anyone should ever have to - especially a defenceless child - but that pain and suffering had shaped him into a wolf that was so different from my own, and I couldn’t stand by and watch him slaughter innocent people in the name of revenge. Albeit, I didn’t know the full story regarding his parents, but by all accounts, they had abandoned him not long after he was born.
It was inexcusable, especially the way they had left him out in the cold, but that did not mean they were responsible for what happened. The blame for that lied solely at Ryssa and Drake’s feet, and he had already made them pay for what they had done. Khaos had no way to even be sure it was his parents that abandoned him – one second in his company and you could feel the powerful wolf inside him. It stood to reason that his parents would be just as powerful as him. Maybe I was being foolish and naïve, but it wasn’t unheard of for heirs to be stolen away.
“Khaos...” I began, wetting my lips nervously.
“Violet...” he mimicked back at me.
“You know this doesn’t excuse what you did, right? I understand you want to find your birth parents; I know there are parts of your upbringing concerning them you’ve held back from me, but that does not mean you can harm innocent packs.
You understand that, don’t you?” I was pleading with him, needing him to agree with me in order for us to have any hope of a future. He might have killed no one, but he couldn’t continue the way he was going. Attacking packs left, right and centre, burning them to the ground. It was madness, and eventually, he would find himself face to face with an enemy that he couldn’t defeat. There was always someone stronger out there.
“This doesn’t concern you,” he growled, opening the car door, and marching towards the packhouse. I sighed heavily and ran to catch up with him.
“How can it not concern me, Khaos? We’re mates! Everything you do impacts me now! Are you listening to me?” I followed him as he made his way towards the bedroom we had abandoned earlier.
“Mates?” He scoffed, shooting me a nasty look. “We’re not mates, Violet. You’ve rejected me enough times to know that.”
“I won’t mate a beast,” I whispered back. “I did nothing to deserve your treatment of me, I won’t be a part of such violence and brutality. Honestly, I’d rather live my life alone than unhappy. I can’t sit awake every night wondering if you will come to bed or you’re too busy murdering someone in the most sadistic way. I can’t have nasty words thrown at me whenever you’re in a temper again!”
“We’re fated to be together. I won’t let you go. It’s as simple as that, so you best start getting used to it. Whether you decide