Wolf: SBMC Maryland, стр. 18
“Why? Why did you buy so many guns?” I ask her, sucking the flesh of her neck into my mouth.
“Wolf,” she sighs. She’s close. I can feel it, hear it in her voice. Each stroke between her legs causes her to pant. With one foot, I kick her legs apart a little more so that I have better access. I move the gun over her pussy as she pants.
“Tell me. Ester was worried about you.” I bite her earlobe and she comes for me. I never knew fucking a chick with a gun would get me this reaction. Clearly, I need to try it again sometime. Krista drops back against my chest and I move the gun, setting it on the counter before wrapping my arms around her.
“She shouldn’t have called you.”
“Why not? She was worried about you. What’ s goin’ on?”
“I can’t tell you.” She pushes off me and tries to walk away yet again. I’m sick of this shit.
“You know what? You walk away this time and that’s it, Krista. I don’t chase women! You wanna hide with your head in your ass, that’s fine but I’m not doin’ this.” She turns slowly to look up at me. Her eyes reflect the most pain I’ve ever seen in anyone.
“Will you go to the park with me?” She asks softly. Running my hand over my face, I don’t know what to say. Do I go? Do I walk away and never look back? What the hell am I doing here?
“Fine.” Reluctantly I agree and follow her out of the range. She walks through the front and doesn’t bother to look at Wilson as she goes.
“Clean that up?” I ask him, nodding toward the back. He flips me a two-finger wave as I trail behind Krista.
Fourteen
Krista
What am I doing? Why am I dragging him into this? I should tell him to leave. I should walk away but I can’t. I hate myself for feeling this weak. This isn’t me. I’ve always taken care of myself and now I feel like I’m losing that part of me with him here. We’ve sat here for hours neither of saying a word. It’s a comfortable silence but I can tell that Wolf is becoming unsettled.
“You gonna tell me what the fuck this is?” he asks flicking his cigarette to the ground and blowing the smoke through his nose. I don’t respond. Just watch. Wolf huffs out a breath and shoves off the picnic table but before he gets too far, I see her.
“That’s her,” I say softly. He stops and walks back to my side, following my gaze to my little Eva.
“The kid?” He asks looking back at me.
“Yeah. That’s Eva.” He doesn’t understand and even as tears slide down my cheeks as I watch her laugh and play in the backyard of her house, my heart aches.
“I don’t get it. That your sister or somethin’?” He asks moving to stand next to me. I take a deep breath and try to calm the raging nerves inside of me before I open my mouth to speak.
“She’s my…she was my daughter.” The words were spoken so softly that I don’t know if he heard me. Wolf turns and moves to stand in front of me.
“What?”
“She…I gave her up for adoption,” I tell him. His hands rest on his hips making him look even more beautiful than he already did. It’s hard to talk to him. It’s hard to tell him things because all I want to do is fall into the safety that I feel when I’m near him. I hate that too. I hate that I actually feel safe with someone because my whole adult life has been living in fear. Fear that he will find me. Fear that he would find her.
“Jesus Christ. Are you plannin’ on kidnappin’ her?” He asks, his face serious. So serious that I actually laugh.
“What? No.”
“Then what the hell is this? Why do you know where she lives?” He’s confused and I understand that.
“She’s Tom’s.”
“The rapist?” He snaps loudly. “You’re fuckin’ kiddin’ me?” Shaking my head, his arms fall to his sides, his body becoming tense. “She’s why you’re here.”
“Yes.”
“I don’t get it. You just stalk the family or what?”
“I’ve always taken care of myself, Wolf. It’s what I do. I never had anything else to care about and that was fine with me. Until her. Tom didn’t know about the pregnancy at first. Somehow, he found out years later. I hid, gave birth and then gave her away. I gave my baby away, Wolf,” I cry. He runs his hand over his face, clearly trying to piece it all together. It’s pretty simple but not for him. He doesn’t know me like that. When he begins to pace, I start to wonder what he’s thinking but my eyes are drawn back to the little girl playing with her ball. I climb off the picnic table and walk closer to watch her. I can hear her laughter echoing through the air. It rips my heart in two, but it also eases the ache.
“She has an amazing family. They are really good people.”
“Then why are you here?” I pull my gaze from her and look up at him. It’s almost like a brick to the face. It all hits him at once and I know now that he knows.
“That son of a bitch!” he roars tugging at his hair. “He threatened you, didn’t he?”
“Not me exactly. He somehow got my number. It isn’t a local number, I made sure of that. I didn’t want him to be able to track me anywhere near her. He called me and said he would find her. He needs her,” I tell him looking back to her. My heart swells with each little laugh that leaves her lips.
“Do her parents know?” I shake my head. “So, you’re just runnin’ around followin’ them and what? Gonna shoot his ass when