Forever, стр. 58
I’ll admit. I’m still a little uncertain in all of this. King still has no idea.
A part of me wants to trust Owen and understand that’s for a reason. The other part of me keeps wondering if this is all a part of Owen wanting to have his cake and eat it too. I keep trying to remind myself of Lost Souls’ code.
They don’t lie to family, but I don’t know if Brick sees me as family. Then there’s the fact that he’s technically lying to King. This probably wouldn’t be so hard if I hadn’t had to see his ex-wife smiling in my face for the last three days.
“So, what happened?” Misty huffs at me as she climbs onto my bed, looking exhausted herself.
I showered and dressed in sweats and a tank top, but I haven’t bothered to leave my room yet today. I actually haven’t been feeling well this morning. I should have known Misty would be in here soon.
After all, I did figure out she somehow was the one who gave Owen the key to my room. She and King are the only ones who have a copy.
“Nothing happened,” I murmur.
“So why do you look like someone kicked your puppy?”
“I just don’t know. I’m second-guessing everything. I mean, what if he’s telling me what he thinks I need to hear for sex,” I murmur. “Let’s face it Mist, look at me and then look at Mags.”
She rolls her eyes at me, hard. “Are you shitting me?”
She scoots back off the bed and stomps around to my side. She grabs my arm and tugs me up. My stomach rolls a little, but I swallow back the nausea and allow her to march me over to the full-length mirror on my closet door.
“I want you to really look at you,” she snaps. I go to turn away, but she holds her ground. “No Eva, look. You’re gorgeous. Look at your eyes. I know women who would kill for your lips. Your hair is so perfect for your face.
“Girl, your body has been amazing since we were like fourteen. The difference between you and Mags is she knows that she’s a beautiful woman on the outside, but she’s ugly inside.”
I shake my head. “I don’t see any of that,” I mutter.
“Oh. MY. God. Guys are always after you. How do you not see this?” she huffs.
“Maybe they’re after sex, but that doesn’t mean I’m pretty,” I say and turn to look her in the eyes.
Misty’s mouth falls open. “What would make you say that?”
“I’ve grown up my whole life watching men fuck anything on legs. Sure, the bunnies here aren’t the worst. The Lost Souls have better taste than most, but I’ve been around MCs where it didn’t much matter. A warm body was a warm body.
“Everyone thinks I’m clueless to things outside of my bubble, but I built my bubble for a reason. Before Mom met Cage, I was teased all the time. Then we came here. I’ve heard the bunnies whisper about how fat and ugly I am,” I confess.
“Fuck them,” she growls. “Eva, those bitches are just jealous. They always have been. Your mom was so gorgeous, and Cage loved her so much. He treated you all like gold.
“When we lost them, those whores all thought they had a shot at being something around here. That shit ain’t never happened and King has treated you just like his daddy did.
“It’s time for you to stop hiding under those clothes and lurking in the shadows like you don’t belong.” Misty pauses and smiles. I promise I see the light bulb go off in her head. I groan and palm my forehead. “I know exactly how to get Brick to come clean.”
“What?” I wrinkle my brows at her.
“I know you. You think he’s hiding things because he doesn’t want you. I know how I’m going to prove you wrong and force Brick to come clean at the same time. I’m going to regret this shit, but I’m not letting you fuck this up. I saw his mug when he talked about you,” she says with a big grin on her face.
“Misty, I’m not feeling up to any of your brilliant ideas today,” I groan.
“Suck it up, sister. You’re doing just what I say. The universe is working in our favor. Brick rolls back in tonight. I can’t wait to see that bitch eat crow when that sexy beast stakes his claim on your ass,” she chimes.
I roll my eyes. I open my mouth to respond, but Misty turns almost green. “Hold that thought.” She rushes to say, taking off into my bathroom.
I run behind her, but she shuts and locks the bathroom door. I’m a little grateful she does once I hear her start to retch. My own stomach flips, causing me to back away.
I go to sit on the bed and think about Misty’s words. I did feel beautiful while I stayed with Owen. I felt confident and sure of myself. Coming here has done more than make me feel disconnected from him. It’s brought up old feelings.
Misty has always been my anchor here. Otherwise, I don’t think I would have stayed around as long as I have. Misty has always said we have every right to be here. If it weren’t for King, I don’t know if I would believe that.
The guys have always treated me with respect, but sometimes I’ve wondered if that is only out of fear. I don’t know, there are a small few who I wouldn’t intentionally find myself alone with, especially after Mom and Cage died. They’re the same ones I’ve noticed King keeps at arm’s length.
However, if I’m honest, since being